There’s still some freedom in my personal life, and this is good. So, I am determined to enjoy this bit of freedom as much as possible. I have the freedom to get up in the middle of the night and write something. Is this good? I bet it is good, it is more than good; it is what makes my life still worth living and enjoyable!
So, I am enjoying my life on this my very last leg. I try not to do anything that would make me unwell or injured, for above all I do not want to end up in a hospital again. Also, I try very hard not to end up in an age care home. The way they are run these days for the majority of people is a disgrace.
It may be vastly different, if you are super rich. But I happen to be not super rich. Still, I do have totally sufficient funds for a normal life. These funds of course cannot pay for all the extra care that I do need at this stage in my life. So I struggle and make do with as little care as possible. It gives me the feeling that I am still somwhat independent, which is good. I am on an age care package, which gives me every week three hours and 15 minutes home help plus a few extra funds when needed. All this is paid for by the government, so that I can stay at home and don’t need to go into an age care home. So far so good.
Am I strong enough to last like that into my nineties? We’ll see. In the meantime, my only aim is to liven it up as much as possible. This means, everything I do has to be somehow enjoyable. Why not? There is nothing wrong with enjoying what I am doing. I may sometimes take a few risks. But they are not stupid risks. I try avoiding stupid risks. I don’t think stupid risks would give me pleasure. I am usually capable to guide my feelings, even though I am very emotional. Most of the time my brain seems to work quite well to guide my feelings. I think it has always been this way. Of course with happy feelings sometimes may come very sad feelings. I am not complaining, without some sad feelings we wouldn’t know how good happy feelings are. One can’t always feel very sad, and one can’t always feel very happy either. But one can aim at enjoying life as much as possible. Yes, just looking at a flower can give me joy. Or going for a very, very slow walk in beautiful sunshine early in the morning: How good is that!
freefall852Keep up the good cheer, Uta…you are a very beneficial example to us following behind! Liked by you and 1 other person
auntyuta This is very kind of you to say so, dear Joe. Yes, I try my best to keep up some good cheer. I think last night I was getting a bit of ‘Torschlußpanik’, thinking that it won’t be long and I’ll turn a horrible 90! So, I made myself get up in the middle of the night to do some writing, just to cheer me up! Yes, this bit of writing did cheer me up immensely. It made me realise, that being close to 90 is maybe not all that bad. I think I have to believe those people, who tell me, it can be good being 90. The best thing I can do is take one day at a time. Liked by 1 person
AuntyUta 