All the Sundays after Peter died

One day after Peter died was a Sunday. I asked Martin, could he drive me to church. And of course he volunteered to do this. I made it to the early Mass at 7,30 am. I did light a candle for Peter after Mass. Then, Erica came to talk to me. She knew that Peter had died and said, she was sorry. She remarked, she was happy that I came back to church. And she asked me, did I have a lift home? I answered, Martin, my son would pick me up again. It so happened, that Caroline and Matthew had gone out to the shopping centre to get fresh breadrolls and eggs for breakfast. They picked me up from church at exactly the right time on their way back home.

The following week on Sunday Martin drove me once more to the 7,30 am Mass. So, I could light another candle for Peter. On that Sunday I did not see Erica. It was the Suday when Martin went with his dog Millie back to his place in Benalla, Victoria. He left soon after breakfast and arrived home soon after 4pm. The border was closed the following day. Martin was lucky, that he had made it home without having to go into quarantine!

Now, today, is the third Sunday after Peter died. I was supposed to ring Erica and ask her, could she give me a lift to church! But somehow I did not feel like ringing. And I am glad I didn’t! I had such a lovely morning here at home, enjoying beautiful sunshine and doing a bit of gardening. Thinking of lighting a candle for Peter, I am going to do this right now, here at home!

Daughter Caroline and son-in-law Matthew went back to. their place in Marrickville. But they did stay with me for quite a while. I wanted to visit Martin in Benalla. But this is not possible for as long as the border is closed. Daughter Monika lives not far away and can help me out when needed. But for the next week or so she is on a holiday at the NSW Southcoast with her children and grandchildren. In the New Year Caroline and Matthew are going to help me with the settling of a few things. And so it goes . . . . .

5 thoughts on “All the Sundays after Peter died

  1. Yes, you can pray, meditate, light candles at home, in the garden, etc…and ease back into church when you feel like it.
    Church can provide a sense of belonging and a place to make friends.
    Keep taking one day at a time.
    With all of the Covid19 restrictions it just makes everything that needs to get done a bit trickier. 😦
    (((HUGS))) ❀ πŸ™‚

  2. You are a survivor. You are good at putting one foot in front of another, crafting a new routine when necessary. I’m glad to read that you’re getting yourself through this difficult time.

  3. Yes, Linda, there may be some light at the end of this tunnel, meaning it might be less difficult, once I have established a new routine. In future when I may feel inclined to ‘knock on doors’, I’ll probably try my best to do it! Thanks for commenting, dear Linda!

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