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“What is important in life is to have someone to love and a reason for living – a sense of purpose.”
Published by auntyuta
Auntie, Sister. Grandmother, Great-Grandmother, Mother and Wife of German Descent I’ve lived in Australia since 1959 together with my husband Peter. We have four children, eight grandchildren and two great-grandchildren. I started blogging because I wanted to publish some of my childhood memories. I am blogging now also some of my other memories. I like to publish some photos too as well as a little bit of a diary from the present time. Occasionally I publish a story with a bit of fiction in it. Peter, my husband, is publishing some of his stories under berlioz1935.wordpress.com View all posts by auntyuta
PublishedApril 2, 2021
13 thoughts on “Uta’s DIARY from Holy Week 2021”
- catterelEditDear Uta, you are making a huge adjustment in your lufe, and at a time of the year when we all tend to feel a bit pessimistic. You seem to be coping very well under the citcumstances, and as you go through the various stages of grief. What is important in life is to have someone to love and a reason for living – a sense of purpose. From my personal observation of residents in Old People’s Homes, when these were missing the people gave up and died. You have a loving family and friends even if you can’t visit. But I think you are very capable on the computer and can skype or facetime or zoom with your loved ones. You also seem to me to be an optimistic and cheerful person at heart. So much of your life centred on Peter in the last years and it must be very difficult to fill the void left by his passing, but if see this as a challenge I am sure you will eventually find a really worthwhile cause to devote your energies to. And do let others pamper and spoil you when they want to – it helps them to feel good, too. A big hug to you my friend.Reply
- auntyuta EditThanks for your big hug, dear Cat. You are right, probably I am a cheerful and optimistic person at heart. There are lots of things I can still enjoy. I just cannot cope with all the dreary stuff. I need someone, who can sort all this out for me. All my children tried to do their best for me. But it is too much for them too. Owning a house that has been not exactly well looked after for a number of years, involves so much work that I am not suited for. Renting a well looked after and maybe somewhat smaller place might perhaps be better for me if there is nobody who can actually live with me in my house. I am the sole owner of the house now, but it is only a headache for me. On the other hand I do love the surroundings of the house, close to nature!I feel a bit like I live in wartime again, wartime when actually most things are put on hold. But somehow it does not make sense to me, since there are a lot of people being newly unemployed because of the virus and some businesses being made redundant, but when it comes to reliable trades people, you can count yourself very lucky indeed to find good, reliable people that work for a reasonable price. Where on earth do I find reliable people like that who do not overcharge? I have no idea. I do need help with that, but so far nobody has come up with any real help. I hate myself for not being able to do a bit more, and then it is hinted, I could perhaps do more if only I put my mind to it.At 86 I feel I am definitely quite close to the end of my life. So really, do I now have to learn to cope with all this stuff that I never in my whole life needed to do before? This computerised world is not my world. A rich person would just employ somebody for doing all these administrative jobs. Maybe I should be such a rich person – Ha, ha!!Thanks again for your lovely hug, dear Cat, and for your very thoughtful and compassionate comment! Wishing you a very HAPPY EASTER with all your loved ones!Reply
- auntyuta EditCat, I agree with this what you say in your comment:“What is important in life is to have someone to love and a reason for living – a sense of purpose.”Reply
- auntyuta EditI wamt to write another reply to you, dear Cat. That is, looking at my reply to you from 2nd April 2021, I feel, there is much that I can say to that now! Outwardly, a lot of things have inproved! For instance, there are wonderful improvements to my house and backyard. Also my health improved a lot after quite some struggle. So, I should be really happy now! – Wrong!! – Why wrong?Right Cat, didn’t you said this: “What is important in life is to have someone to love and a reason for living – a sense of purpose.”Well, I say it is alright for me to love a lot of people, but really nobody is now very close to me in my life. – Actually, I find it good, that nobody is going to miss me for very long, when I am gone. So, I would say, the people I love, are definitely no reason for me to go on living. A good reason for living would be my desire, to write an autobiographical novel. I know, I cannot rely on it, that I get actual support in doing this. So, it is totally up to me to find the determination to do it all on my own as best as I can. In conclusion, I say, writing could give me a reason for living as well as a sense of purpose. I cannot see, that there is any other purpose in my life right now. However, I often feel, I would not mind at all, if I could die in an instant at any time! I feel, there is no need to say good bye to anyone!
I made today a few new comments in the original blog and copied it here.
Go to the original blog if you want to have a look at some more comments from April 2021!
We are in the midst of HOLY WEEK 2021. So tomorrow is GOOD FRIDAY, a holiday. Sitting in front of my house in the early morning sun – this is what I am looking forward to for tomorrow.
I am not looking forward to asking someone for a lift to the MEDICAL CENTRE. Do I really need a change of the dressing on my lower leg? We’ll see.
Sitting in the sun. This is all I am longing for . . . .
Last Sunday I returned from my two weeks holiday at my son’s place in Victoria. With the help of one daughter and one granddaughter I was able to go to the MEDICAL CENTRE on Monday and on Wednesday. I was able to use the ROLLATOR, which was really a great help. Right now, I do not feel confident to walk with my walking stick!
And anyway, I…
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