We always wish

19 Jun

I thank Ajaytao for these words of wisdom and want to reblog them and write some thoughts about my own life.

Turning 80 this year I can say that I have had a good life. Even now at this advanced stage in my life I can still enjoy life and do not find it too hard to cope with age related aches and pains. Do I wish I could have changed something in my life? Oh yes, I wished I could have changed not having had to grow up in Germany during wartime and the difficult postwar years. Of course these are things we cannot change. But WW II for sure turned me in an antiwar person for the rest of my life.

False advertising, propaganda, and outright lies, these are the things I am very sensitive to. Blame my childhood experiences. I learned early on that you cannot believe everything a leader might tell you. We lived like paupers after the war. I went to school till I was eighteen, but I did not apply myself. I never learned to study hard. Probably I could not see any sense in it. At eighteen I started secretarial work. A few years later came marriage and children and migration to Australia.

Ever since I left school (and during my school years as well!) I had very little money to live on. However I was never desperate for more money. Throughout my life my motto was I have to make do with the little money I have. It turned out that somehow it was always enough. My husband and I are very good savers. We paid off our house with a building society loan. The first few second hand cars we bought on hire purchase. Apart from that we never went into debt. When we travelled overseas we used our own saved up money.

Do I wish I could have changed my past? Sure I would have liked to grow up without the deprivations of war. I would have liked my father to be home all the time. I would have liked my parents to live together after the war. These are things I definitely could not have changed. What could I have changed? Study hard, go to university, end up in a profession I would have loved to work in? Well, it was not to be. I did not have the guts to study hard.

Even though we were rather poor the first few years in Australia, I did not feel poor. I was happy having a family and I enjoyed the easy going Australian lifestyle. How much did I change over the years? Maybe not all that much. I am probably basically still the person I was when I came to Australia aged 25. Some major changes in my education would probably have been possible before I even entered high-school. I was just easy going at school, always got good marks without much effort; except towards the end of my school career at commercial school, which I hated!

I remember as a teenager I spent hours dreaming about a wonderful person who would come along and give me some guidance. I never did get to know such a person, except in my dreams! But I was very happy later on with romance and married life and children. Well, I must say, I am quite happy with the way things turned out to be in my personal life. Still, one thinks sometimes how things could have been somewhat different.

7 Responses to “We always wish”

  1. elizabeth2560 June 20, 2014 at 8:57 am #

    Thanks for telling us about your history. I found it fascinating. I have always admired your positive outlook on life and also not being afraid to speak out and make comments on political events and standing up for your beliefs. thank you.

    • auntyuta June 20, 2014 at 9:35 am #

      Thank you so much for this very kind comment, dear Elizabeth. 🙂

  2. The Emu June 20, 2014 at 11:42 pm #

    Thanks for a great blog Auntyuta, you certainly have a beautiful outlook on life,
    Ajatao’s saying is very profound, it would be great if a lot of people could read and understand his words.
    The past is what has created the present.
    Cheers
    Emu aka Ian

    • auntyuta June 22, 2014 at 8:46 am #

      Hi Emu aka Ian!
      Yes, the past has created the present. Our past experiences made us to that what we are today. Still, we are always changing somehow, aren’t we? Hopefully we have matured and become wiser! 🙂
      Cheerio
      Auntyuta

  3. Munira July 5, 2014 at 6:21 am #

    I love coincidences, and today the coincidence has been reading this blog post right after instagramming a photo I took this evening, which I captioned ‘The past is prologue’….:)
    Isn’t that strange?
    All day today I have been reminiscing about people that populated my past, who I will never meet again, either because they have passed on, or moved to another country, drifted apart, or simply because there can be no more connections with them. Have been carrying around a knot of nostalgia and a strange wistfulness at the loss of times that can never be revisited, except in vague memory.
    Your thoughts are so familiar to me Aunty Uta. ❤

  4. berlioz1935 July 5, 2014 at 12:59 pm #

    ” I took a photo this evening, which I captioned ‘The past is prologue’….:) ”

    Hi Munira, it is interesting what you are saying just a the time of the Football World Cup in Brazil, because a former, famous soccer couch once said, “After the game is before the game!”.

    There is always a challenge before us and we should not celebrate too much our victory or bemoan or loss. So every day, is a new game, a new challenge, isn’t it? And if we are not prepared we haven’t been listening.

    Perhaps we should do as our old, dear friend Master Rumi advises us, even if it is hard and we would rather like to procrastinate:

    “Don’t sit and wait. Get out there, feel life.
    Touch the sun, and immerse in the sea.”

  5. auntyuta July 5, 2014 at 4:45 pm #

    Truly, Munira, my feelings about people that populated my past are very similar to yours. You say that my thoughts are so familiar to you. Well, I can reciprocate by saying that your thoughts are indeed familiar to me too!
    It was great hearing from you. I hope, you and your family are well.
    Have a great weekend!
    Love, Auntyuta 🙂

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